Hands to Heaven

How difficult is it to tell someone the truth?
It’s weird as to we always beat around the bush.
Being upfront about everything seems to be the hardest thing to do for any one person. I guess that’s how it has to be. Not all things in life is easy to accomplish. Every thing can’t be accomplished in a single lifetime.

Whoa, wtf was that about lol. But yeah. The last entry I had on here was awhile back. Been a busy bee, since halloween 07. Interesting how the days since then feels like it’s been collapsed into a single week. I can vividly remember the days as if they happened a couple of days ago. Not often can someone remember that much information. All the late nights I’ve spent seems to not have taken a toll in my weird enough time clock that my body runs on. I’ve been running on fuel powered by joy and excitement. I look forward to each day as it passes. However, not everything is all fun and games. I really have no idea what I’m saying anymore. It’s late. really late.

I can’t believe it’s already December 24, 2007. As far as I can remember Thanksgiving was just last week. It really is true that time flies when you’re having fun. My personal life seems to move so much quicker than my days at work. The 8 hours I spend at work seems so much longer than the 10 hours I spend with friends/family. I can’t berieve it. hehe.

Jokes that turn out to embarrass you, is something we all try to avoid. We all know it’s quite hard to do such a task. I really don’t know why i’m goign to keep at this, for now I really do think I will stop writing. My hands are cold, my feet are cold. My laundry needs to be done. Heaven really is a place on earth. I’ve been there and back everytime we part. On a good note I did find someone!!! Till the next blog, one more before the year ends is my goal. If it’s a goal, it’s close, if it’s a dream, it’s reachable.,p.

Live free, act random, think smart

October 28, 2007

Normally Sunday nights I go home right after work. My normal shift of 9:30-6:30 is usually enough for me on a Sunday, considering that I don’t usually sleep early to get a full night’s rest. That night my Auntie was having a birthday dinner at some filipino restaurant in Westlake. Surprisingly, it wasn’t a normal dinner that I would expect. This had a different atmosphere, they had full lightning with enough equipment to hold a concert. The only thing missing was the band members. What they did have, was sort of an open mic event. A lady was playing some songs on guitar for all participants while we ate dinner. It was rather a very relaxing atmosphere, one that I don’t usually partake in. Definetely would go back and maybe even consider playign a song or three. After dinner, mother went on with her friends to go celebrate more of her birthday while I almost went home, until Ter called me up and invited me to eat. I already ate at this point, so I watched him eat at Ling Nam. After this I realized I had my gear in my car so we set out to find a spot to take pictures. We drove out close to College Drive. Skyline College that is. We parked, walked along Highway 35 for what seemed like miles, but it was probably only 1/4 to 1/2 mile. Kind of long considering that I don’t normally take long walks anymore. It was around 11 when we were packing up everything, the tripod, and the cameras when a police car drove by and flashed the lights at us, or that little flood light he has outside his car, whatever it is. In my head, on snap, here we go again, encounter with the cops. We weren’t doing anything wrong, or at least in my head we weren’t, probably the only thing we did wrong was walk along Highway 35 at night. The cop was sort of nice, didn’t know much about photography from what he asked us. He did the usual Routine check, ID/Drivers License. Though I am quite unsure as to why he asked us where we worked and what not. Oh well, nothing better happen. He kept asking us questions what we were taking pictures of and where else do we go take pictures. I said we were taking pictures of the city in general. Landscaping is what we do, told him it was more of a hobby than anything else. Took pictures of the airport, since the plane’s lights provide that streak of light across the frame, which really does look nice. Before he let us go, he asked us if we took pictures of PG&E power stations, Firestations, malls, police stations. I was like wow he thinks we’re planning on doing something. Whatever though, it wasn’t a big deal since I wasn’t doing anything of that sort, well except I took pictures of the airport, but not for any particular reason. Weird thing before we left was he said, “Be safe walking back to your car.” WTF dude! First you were telling us how dangerous it was being there, now you’re going to tell us to walk back. Haha, was quite a funny experience. Got a kick out of that. Here’s some pictures from that night actually I like these pictures a lot.One of the pictures is a slow shutter speed with it facing HIghway 35, it was pretty cool I like how pictures like those turn out. The other was a shot of South San Francisco/San Bruno/Part of Daly City. Airport is visible in the picture as well too. Really is quite an oustanding view up there.

November 2, 2007 – November 4, 2007

Before the 2^nd Les was @ my house chilling until we started talking about work and how we were off this day and that day. At this point one of us came up with the idea that we should go to Santa Cruz to chill or what not. Then someone else said, let’s go to San Diego instead. So knowing us, we went for the farther destination, San Diego. Called up the contacts we had in So-Cal and grabbed another one of our buddies Marv to go with us. 1 day of planning and we were off for one of the randomest trips we’ve ever taken, considering we planned a couple of days ahead. Les and I, expected the usual, Marv’s car, Marv sitting in the back me and Les split the driving. That’s what we expected and that’s what we got. Haha. It’s nothing new. If it’s Marv’s car, he’s not driving whatsoever. Everytime we ask him to drive he’ll come up with a good excuse for us to not let him drive. “You want us to get lost?” “I’m tired!!” For some odd reason that “I’m tired,” clause seems to work, even though he just sits there. Lol. It’s cool we got there in one piece. November 2, 2007 was a Friday, our plan that day was to leave as early as we could to get to UCLA, Angela’s place as early as we could to avoid all sorts of traffic. Unfortunately, us Filipino’s cannot help but run in the time we know as Filipino time, in other words being late. Plan was to leave @ 11 for LA. We left @ 1 close to 2. We stayed @ Angela’s apartment that night, her roommates were having a party so that was pretty cool and interesting. No partying for me that night, I actually got to experience a whole party without missing the 2^nd half of it lol. Oh BTW, we got to meet some of Angela’s friends. Her friends Linda, and her bf, Quy [sp?] resemble us. It’s weird. We all act like each other. Lol. It was an outstanding visit to LA.

November 3, 2007 we set out to San Diego, to meet up with our main goal of the visit, Warren Ricafort. Picked him up ate at some thai place in Downtown San Diego. Good food. Had a double dose of curry the last meals I had there. First the curry house the night before then thai curry. Whatever though, something you wont’ normally do you know. After walking around DTSD, I called up Alva in UCSD to see if she wanted to kick it. So in turn we went to UCSD and paid her a visit. It was getting late and we still had to look for a hotel/motel to sleep at, but Alva offered to let us spend the night. Felt kind of bad though. Sorry! But hey looks like we did get stuff done and was worth the stay.

November 4, 2007 back to DTSD to drop off Warren and pay Daniel a visit at his pad. Nice pad by the way. Way cheaper rent down there than up here in the bay area. Considering the transfer to down there rather than stay up here.

These are the three guys that made this trip happen.
Next picture is a random picture of someone posing.

The trip was a random trip and it was successful thanks to the kindness of friends who took us in at such short notice. I guess a word of thanks is in order for your kind services hospitality. =)!!!

Things

change…

No one knows what that outcome will be. Anticipation is built until that moment, where everything just reveals itself upon you. When a situation goes the way you plan you always imagine how it would be if it didn’t. I would be lying if I denied it. It’s all common sense, everybody does it.

I don’t do this political, philosophical ordeal man.

Christopher is ‘Chris The Pro’. How awesome is that? Cool.

Anyways. Today was sort of a hassle with everything. I feel like I didn’t get much done today. Went to a stupid training, then went back home, in hopes of doing something, but that didn’t turn out the way i had expected it to. Oh well it’s cool though. I finished 1/2 of my Calc1 homework. All that I really have left to do is finish the other half and work on my Autocad drawings. Hopefully my drawings I’ll be able to work on tomorrow, Saturday, or at the latest Sunday night after work. If not i’ll do it during lab time on Monday. It’s bad, but hey it’s a good way of being able to do everything all at once.

Honestly, I am the worst with this time management stuff. I cannot manage my time for crap. It’s so hard!!! I can never show up on time, though I’m trying methods that can hopefully change all this non-sense. Taking a shower at night instead of the morning is supposed to help me, but it doesn’t because since I know I already took a shower prior to sleeping, I always let myself sleep in the rest of the time it would have taken me to shower. So what does that leave me with? Nothing, I’m back to where i was before. No improvement whatsoever. It’s fine, it’s a work in progress.

Looking back the past 20 and some odd months of my life, I always wonder what great things I have done that makes me remarkable? Or just stand out from what my peers have accomplished. We all have done great things, but there’s always one event that no one can ever forget, regardless if it was on a large scale basis or even on a much more miniscule version of it. As I look back, I can’t think of a single event. By doing this the same question keeps popping up, What is the purpose of life? This question I leave to you to answer.

Late response….

but, it must be said regardless. It is true Change is inevitable. Who cares if the change is good or bad, it’s up to you to make the best out of it. If it turns out bad, then make the best out of it, then your mentality on the situation will change. Yeah, I’d rather have that feeling of denial and that uncomfortableness, rather than me always trying to figure out what if.

How sure are you that tension will cause a rupture in your friendship? For all you know it really could just work out for you. I don’t know i’d rather take that chance, instead of lingering around and waiting for that opportune moment. Hmm..I don’t know anymore. In my opinion, attraction phase has gone and succeeded already. Friend zone is now what is left. Do you know the difficulty of moving from friend to attraction? Very difficult. Things could be going wrong, but that’s just how it works. But there is a good point about the acting nice and it backfiring. It’s honestly happened. You can only learn from your mistakes. it’s been too long now. Hey, your choice…Do what you need to do?

On the bright side, work sucks…There isn’t much I can do that can make things better. Things just seem to go downhill when things start looking like it will get better. Ahh…dont’ know what I am even talking about. BTW, school counselors really suck ass, They are all lazy people. Pointless, but helpful to a certain extent. I am still on my way to transferring as a Mechanical/Aeronautical Engineering major. I have a pretty set plan on the courses I have to take before I take off from Chabot. However, as transfer school goes, I am still at a loss. All I have in mind is SJSU and UCD. Other schools in mind is UCI, SLO, Pomonoa, and SFSU. I have no other information on the other school….yet. Now that that’s settled, I need to get to crackign on what needs to be done.

I’m thirsty….

My bad,

What in life makes…

you happy? Honestly, everything does. As for me that’s how it goes at least. For me there is not one thing that does not get me happy. However, there are those certain topics that cannot be brought up without a tear in eye. yeah just something to rant bout though.

On another note, I think my friend should just express his feelings to the girl. I can see why he is scared to do it, but he should just go ahead and do it. Why you might ask? I’ll give three reasons:
1) You’ll go on day to day not knowing how she feels about you
2) you’ll go on questioning yourself how things would be different
and
3) it’ll take even longer to get over this person

3 reasons enough to just go ahead and do it. It is true that there is that chance of being turned down, but honestly, rather be turned down, than going on dreading what could/would have happened. At least this way, learn from experiences and/or mistakes, depending on how you see things.
If someone were to really think about it, isn’t a mistake just an experience? Yeah so why not call everything an experience, it gives life more of positive connotation, rather than a negative one. Mistakes or experiences, they are both the same thing actually. I actually have no idea, where i’m trying to get at with this. I will just end that topic right here right now.

August 12, 2007 a Sunday, I actually was able to experience such an event that pretty much opened up my eyes to the beauty of the universe. What I saw was a meteor shower. Perseids meteor shower. It wasn’t as lively as what one might think, but it was enough for you to see it. It was awesome just lying there on the floor on top of my sleeping bag with Stephanie using my blanket as a pillow. I should have used that ‘pillow’ as a blanket instead, since it was so cold, at one point at least. Anyways it was good stuff. I actually had a pretty nice picture of the sky, unfortunately no meteor streaking across the sky.
Pretty much this is the picture, the picture does have a lot of noise, since I took it at ISO1600. I could have shot it at ISO400, but that would’ve required more time and a steadier spot. It was fun and the picture actually looks slightly nice.

Once again a countdown to school 4 days left before official start day of Fall Semester 2007. I need soemthing to close off my summer with a bang. Not really, but it would be great to actually go out and do something. It doesn’t even have to be huge, something small would pretty much work out in my favor. Lately, i’ve been sleeping late, so 3:12AM PST is late enough, so i must head out now and go do my thing, sleep that is. Till next time…

Summer School

has been over for quite some time now. About 1 week and 4 days to be exact. It hasn’t felt like much of a summer this year due to the fact that summer school was in session for me this time around. it was probably the hardest time I’ve had in quite some time. Schedule wise I had no time to do practically anything for fun. If I wasn’t at school I was at work and vice versa. Now I am bored out of my mind. Everyday when I don’t have work or school the thoughts of what I’m going to do today keeps running through my head. The thoughts just keeps bombarding you until you get to the point where all you want to do is get out of the house and just drive until you find something to do. I actually did that once. So bored, i drove around and found myself Albany, Ca. Not very far actually. Sounds far but it’s not.

My 2 weeks I felt that i’ve accomplished a lot already. I finished a book and on my way to finishing a second one. I recommend ‘The Alchemist’ by Paulo Cuelho. It’s a pretty good book about dreams actually. Fiction of course, but hey it’s interesting stuff. Now i’m reading ‘A Walk To Remember,’ as weird as that sounds. Honestly, it’s pretty good. I’m engulfed in my reading there isn’t much motivation for me to read on a normal basis, but hey if I can read these books i’m recommending, then i’m sure reading would be quite easier. Or at least i hope that’s how it goes. hehe.

Sunday August, 12, 2007. I was fortunate enough to be a volunteer photographer for the Pistahan Parade. I got to walk down Market Street without the fear of getting hit by cars or anything. It was pretty cool actually. I have pictures that i’m still uploading, but eventually they will make it online…..one day.

Monday August 13, 2007. Nothing

No i will not be writing out my day-to-day because that will be too boring. Everything is itemized and categorized making things seem so scheduled. I like to act spontaneously. Not at all times, but for the most part most of the time. As of right now though, I am falling asleep typing this, while watching Discovery Channel, and while uploading about 1.5 gb of pictures from the parade, while breating and blinking (for long period of times). Basically I am in the brink of going to sleep. Which I shall be doing now. Till next time…

What is

it that I want to accomplish?
- It feels like I don’t know what I want anymore
- What I want is not how I presumed it should be
Why is everything so difficult?
Life has so many questions to it. Different aspects and approaches as to how we can go along. I don’t like this feeling, where whatever I planned is not going accordingly. Anyways, my savior from this feeling is to find a place to relax and watch nice scenery. No, I do not mean ’scenery’, but really the scenery. I like the feeling of cold breeze blowing in my face. This blog never has any real structure to it, but i guess that’s what really makes it unique.

So summer school is finally in it’s last leg. 1 week, or 3 days of English 1 and Speech 1 left and 2 weeks, or 8 days left of Calculus. Who would’ve thought that I could have pulled this off. 11 units within 8 weeks as well as workign part time. It’s crazy how I even did it, I’m actually pretty stoked about it finishing up real real soon. Whoo Hoo. With the last day of Summer school being on August 2, I have roughly 2 weeks of actual summer vacation. When I get to be on vacation, i have no idea of where to actually go or do anything.

Haha. The show ‘The Office’ is actually pretty funny. Worth the watch. For now I will leave this blog incomplete as I always do. Eventually I will write a full blog with a more balanced structure, better content, and one that is full of stories. As of now, I shall be heading out and update this later.

It’s time

that I learn to manage everything accordingly. For me to use my time productively rather than galavanting on useless meanders. It’s weird as how things changed for me within these past couple weeks. I realy mean 2 weeks. Mind frame is slowly starting to shift into a whole different level that I’m not used to.

On the other hand I have 50 days from today for my Calculus 1 class to finish up. I am killing myself for this summer to advance in my school plan. I have fallen behind a plan that I set up. However, it’s ok, I switched majors twice during my time @ Chabot. 3rd year just about to start my transfer courses. When things fall according to plan I seem to be a very happy person.

My room is clean finally. New desk is in. Still needed 19″ LCD monitor, preferrably a LG brand, loft with the ladder on either the footing or the heading of the loft, pick up the futon and buy a footstool with integrated storage. All doable by fall semester. Yes, but I dont know if I will do it by then.

Till the next time I come back I will tell exciting stories of everything and anything.

Shouldn’t Summer

be a time where all of us are out having fun, chillin, relaxing, not worrying about anything. Too bad that’s not how it is for me. I have to worry about going to school almost full-time and working part time. 11 units during summer session at school man. Whoo, killing myself there practically, but yeah, basically, trying to finish up as fast as I can. T

There hasn’t been much of an update on anything lately. Everything is the same as it was before. At least I think that’s how it is. Nothing has changed, everything is the same, when in reality everything is changing. I don’t even know anymore. I’m so confused when it comes to certain things. Feels like there’s not much more for me anywhere. Like I don’t belong. Trial period is over and I wasn’t worthy of the time. Fuck that though. Yeah, it’s such a generalized topic what I was talking about that it can be put to use in whatever category I want and it would still make sense.

I got my l-shaped desk, now my room looks somewhat nicer if you do’nt consider the mess on the floor. As of now I am just waiting for my loft bed to be purchased by me of course. By that time my room should almost be completely done. I just need to buy some little things for my rom to look a little bit nicer though. Tonight I think sleeping on the floor would be my best bet, since my bed is covered with stuffed animals from all those casinos haha. my floor is covered with small things that I don’t even think I should still keep. I also cleaned out my closet and found a lot of stuff that needed to be thrown away. some old binders that didn’t even need to be kept. I am somewhat bored of my room and need of change that is why I did this remodel kind of thing. Thanks to my friend I’ll be getting a free futon to put under the loft i’ll be getting. The loft will be something cheap and usable. I’ll just use the existing mattress I have to save money you know.

Btw, I actually got a new job now. Cingular, the new AT&T, is my new occupation. Well the new company i’m working for at least. Money is ok, but there’s been a lot of changes store-wide, so it’s kind of hard to gauge if the job is goign to stay cool and fun. I hope it stays the same. Made going to work slightly more interesting. Which is a very good thing. School was like that to a certain point, then it just kind of died out.

For the meantime I will leave you with this quote I got from somewhere, “If you need anything please don’t hesitate to ask someone else first” I think that’s how it went.

It’s been sometime

since I last wrote here

haha, wtf. Anyways on a serious note though, it really has been awhile since I was last here. Things have changed, I do not know if it’s for the better, but I sure do know it’s not for the worse. The party side of Chris has come out, and now that is what i have been doing. Glaskat on Thursday’s and find house parties over the weekends. Talk to me a year ago, I wouldn’t be like this. Yeh I’m serious bout it too. Last year, I was focused on school like a mad man. Now, I don’t even know anymore.

This week seems like it is going to be a crazy week. My homeboys birthday is this Thursday, mines is Friday, then my other homeboys birthday is on Sunday. Yeh there’s a bunch of events going on with that too. Saturday there’s gon be a bonfire to whoever can go, then Sunday there’s going to be a bbq over in the haystack.

Btw, did I mention that I quit Mosaic already, and got a job at Cingular instead. It’s weird this past Sunday I almost got into trouble. I fell asleep at my friend’s couch and my manager calls me up at 11:20 asking where I was. I of course did not pick up return any calls concerning work till like 4:00pm. One of my coworkers even checked up on me in the store, my manager even called the store too. The other store reps were warning me which was pretty cool, cuz it showed they had my back like that you know. It’s one of the things I’m going to miss about working there. The cuteness that would walk by every here and there. the easy times it would be compared to the employees over there. It’s just weird how we go through all these changes. Man, if everything would just play through and fall into places I want them to, then I’d be a pretty wealthy guy really. But you know what, i’m pretty content with the way things are going right now. However, things could start looking up in one department in my life. yeah.

So yeh, till the next update, I will talk about my birthday outing, actually that weekend,and my job. Actually I’ll update again later tonight. Late.